Ranting from a Comic Guy

This is my final Journal for LiveJournal

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 05:35:54 GMT

There is no point to letting the world know how I feel. My life is the same as it has been for a while, and I think it'll just keep on going that way. I'll just elaborate with everyone who even reads this thing anymore on what I plan to do with the present and the future. But first, the past.

A lot of times, way back in the summer, I went out to various places. Met some very interesting, cool and trustworthy friends. A few of which are Aaron and Mike. We used to spend a lot of time playing videogames and stuff. New games, old games, bizzare games, hell even board game videogames(Monopoly). Times were good, and we had a load of laughs. Good times.

New girl and new plans. Melinda is my wife-to-be and I couldn't be any happier. She treats me like royalty and respect. She didn't question me in what I did, because she knew I was good and trusty. My life long partner has been found. And I'm happy it did.

My friends and family were getting through so much that I wouldn't trade any moment of it for the world. All the binds, bad times, good times, and hellish events made us so much closer that it's almost impossible to see if we'd be apart. I love everyone I know, good or bad. They make the world I live in worth living in. I still dislike some people. That's just who I am. But for the first time in a long time I don't really care if they're around anymore. I just want to live and be free without worry. Of course that's an impossible task, but I'm not worried about it. I'll endure the times like I used to do. I've done so much to let something get me down.

Art is still my passion. My muse and my desire. The thing that I want to do, and currently am doing. I'm a licensed artist to work for an independent card game. Wow.... Big deal. What's more fun for me is my comics. I draw them for fun now. I don't even care anymore. I draw to draw. Fuck everything else about why to draw. I draw to be me. So if that's a problem with anyone, fuck you! Yeah, I'm talking to everyone. Don't change me cause of that. I'll stab a person if they take that away from me. That and if they take Mel away. I'll do worse then. Yeah. Beware!

There. past is all caught up. Now for the present. I still do the same things. I draw comics, I got to the Pit no matter who's there, I am still with Mel. The only thing that needs to be picked up now, and it will, will be going to Aaron's to hang out. I don't know if I'll be spending the night like I used to, but I'll definately get my ass moving to hang out. Hopefully that'll be enough. If not, then I'm sorry. Get over it. Amanda is really gone and out of my mind now, though Mel still needs to get her out of the mind. She's told me that she's gonna forget about it. I told her today if you keep going on about it, you're gonna grow angry and heartless. And I don't want that. I know she means well when she's telling people about Amanda because of what the two went through. She doesn't want anyone to get hurt that she knows. She cares too much about people to see them get hurt, especially the people she knows. She'd kill people who hurt her friends. But I also told her that it wasn't just her who got the history with Amanda. The shit came more to me and Mel threw out the anger I should have been given. That's what I told her, and I hope she was listening. Because I know what I was talking about. I was tired of hearing about Amanda and shit. It just got old. I know she doesn't like her and I don't either. But I don't wanna keep bringing it up. I'm done with it. She is, too. And if she brings it up again, she'll get a nuggie. So, I'm gonna have to show her how to forgive and forget. What is my plan for my comics? I'm gonna do what Josh Sullivan did. I'm gonna go out into the world, settle down in Florida, work at some simple job that I'll make myself like it and I'll be a success. End of the matter. No one will stop that from me. I'll see to it personally. So when Mel gets out of school and/or beauty school, we're out of here. The world will be open for ideas. I don't care. I'll finally be free with Mel and that'll be it. We can start over. All over. And that's just fine and dandy with me. But until then, I'll be where my one family is. The Pit, Red Eye, Aaron's house, Oldtown basically. Yep. I've said my piece. I love Mel with all my heart, and I love everyone else. Josh Sullivan, see if you will be able to get me a spot in the Globe Coffee house or something. Yeah. I'm finished.

Late

So tired..... Too EARLY!!!

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 14:54:16 GMT

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Updates! Oh My GAWD!!!

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 06:55:35 GMT

Well, well. Last time I updated, things looked a bit more dull than usual, eh? Well, I guess I'll remedy all that right now. Whee!

Today is Thanksgiving, so we're all gonna be stuffing our faces up pretty good, I expect. Well, why the hell am I up? I guess I can't sleep, really. I have an urge to clean me compost heep of a room. I mean, it's not completely dirty, but I feel like it can be much better. Though I am an original procrastinator, and will probably find something else to do... God I suck at this cleaning thing.

My desire to do any serious art is slowly dwindling. I need motivation to do some artwork. Too bad I don't have a PayPal account, which then I'd start making commisions to do some art. Man, I really need to get something going, though. I'm gonna talk to my dad about working some more with him for some extra cash. I need to get some.

Comics are beginning to pick up slowly. I have to do some scripts and that now before I start to draw something. Also, I want to get me some nice Prismacolor pens to start hand coloring things. Though I will still do Digital coloring, I just want the satisfaction of actually doing some coloring with my hands. Maybe I should add some powerful elements to it, such as paint or something. My elements of work need much improvement. I'm an artist, damnit! A damn good one, too, and I feel my horizons need expanding. Maybe I should do something other than cartoon/anime stuff. Maybe get a digital camera and take some silly pictures of myself and Melinda. And a bunch of other things.

A list of things I need to get before my money runs out is an actual drafting board. All I've been drawing on was a piece of block wood from a spare desk we never finished making. The desk is long gone, and all it's wood is scattered around my room. I would make a desk, but there's not enough wood to even go about and make a loose end desk. I'd kill for something like that. Also, I might want to invest in a futon. Reason being is that I think I could use more room in my bedroom. My bed will just be put away to save for my move with Melinda. We're looking for a place as of right now to live in. We need jobs and a steady bank account to save up needed things. Just a quiet cheap place to start with. Probably an apartment, but there's a place I want to check out in Oldtowne. It's above a sandwich shop and has an excellent view. Should really give them a call. Hear that, Same!? I'll get you the damn pictures for my hopefully new 'studio' as soon as I get a place. I'll make it all pretty for ya! And me, of course.

I've got a drawing I promised I'd do for :iconDigi7777: that I really need to finish soon. I will get that done first, and after that, finish my first actual comic. Then I'm gonna do a nice pretty drawing for people. I'm not gonna tell who it is, though, so I want all of you, ALL OF YOU, to make sure you see it! Cause it'll make me feel good and stuff. Man, this is good.

Sorry to keep all of you wondering where I was in the world. I just don't have much time to make for journal entries, ya know? I do respond to others journals, but I guess I should really work harder on this. So, whee! If you read all of this, this is the end, then, okay? Okay!

No worries on my part.

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 15:02:08 GMT

Hey, gang. How's it going? I'm feelng better. I found out that George is alright. He came home last night. And I guess I kinda felt really bad. But Mel was there to cheer me up all the way. Thanks, Mel! I'm not mad at her, if she thinks I am. I can't be mad at her. I love that girl way too much to get mad at her. George is gonna sue, though. If he sues, chances are he's gonna win, cause I saw the leg and the arm. I heard that he also got bit in the ass. Ouch!!! >XO

But I think today I'm gonna draw stuff. Maybe a trip to see Kaelberer and after that, go to the comic shop to see if I can meet some more talented artists. Mel and I are doing a new comic with my comic! GO US!!! We will dominate all that stand in our way! Bwahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!! I'll probably do the survey thing when I get back, which could be at 6:00 tonight. So, here I go!

So, kids! Do we see a connection?

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 02:39:40 GMT

I don't know what the hell is up with my computer, but I can't see this. I hope you all can, though.

Watching the debate. I hate Bush!

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 18:46:57 GMT

Well, no work today, but we're working tomorrow, so. It's looking like two jobs, so I'll be getting 50 bucks tomorrow. Whee!

I need to know a topic for a Hoedown! Tell me!

I've decided

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 14:58:37 GMT

Okay. Here's my plan of attack.

Comics: Today I wanna go to Coys and see about if MAYBE he needs help with anything. If not, then I want some help with something. Mike put up a few names of people who want to help out with comics in the world. They want to get started on a projects, collaborate with other people, and possibly get something going. I need some help for my stories. So, hopefully I get some numbers down. It'll take some work off of my part. Hope to get me a writer for some scripts and that. Hey! I'm all for easy work and that!

Job: I have come to the conclusion that I am gonna work with my step dad, George, and help install satellites and dishes. Hey, it's not the easiest of work, but I get paid $25 per dish we put in. So, if I get two dishes in a day, that's $50 in one day. Not bad cash if I do say so myself, but chances are that it'll be one dish a day. And the thing about the job is that I'd have to travel. And I mean TRAVEL. It goes through most of Michigan to work, but I don't really care. I'm willing to work that much. It'll get me some cash, and a write up for some resume work. Hey! I can live with that.

Comic Work: I'm gonna cut back on the work time. Aaron and Mel think I'm working too hard, which they're right. (Thanks for caring, guys.) Nuff said.

That about sums it up. Whee!

I feel like making a song... About Bush!

Tue, 05 Oct 2004 15:13:08 GMT

I was thinking of the election this morning, and I was watching MTV for a bit. And what happened to be on was Green Day "American Idiot". Well, I do enjoy Green Day since it's what I grew up on. I thought about the election, and put the melody of American Idiot into play, and I guess I'm gonna think up some lyrics for Mr. Bush.... Heh, heh, heh! This will be fun! Well, I hope you all will enjoy it, when I figure it out. So, here we go!

For this week...

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 17:22:04 GMT

Today is the 4th anniversary. It's been a third of a year now since Melinda and I have went out and I gotta say, I haven't been happier. I've felt as if we have grown closer to each other everytime we talk to each other. And it never seemed to get worse. We've had very little bad times, and we always pull through them. So, this will be a good day indeed.

Oh! Today is Jasmine's birthday! She's the big ol' 17! Happy birthday, Hammadad. If you want me to make ya something, let me know. Wheee!

Speaking of birthday's, mine is coming up. It's on Friday, and Melinda is stealing me for that day. Yay! Matt Shaffer is also doing something, too. He's setting up a Saturday of DDR for me and a bunch of people. Anyone who knows me is welcome to join in on the fun. So, c'mon down and join the beats. It'll be at Aladdin's Castle. Time will be known later.

Oh, and this is for Ryan McCarthy. I heard about your little talk with Melinda the other day. You are very fortunate that you got what you did from her, because if I was there, you would have recieved a much worse thrashing. IF you say something to her like that again, I will not hesitate to come to your house and give YOU a piece of my mind. And if you think I'm being a dick about it, then come to my house and say it, you chicken shit. Or are you afraid? Bring whoever you wanna bring. I'm way overdue for kicking some ass, and you're the one who seems to be on my side right now. And, dude, I don't care what bullshit reason you had for it, you're starting the shit so get the fuck out of it and live your life, you hypocritical cry baby. I'm sick of hearing about you pulling some shit with Melinda. So next time you do something like that, watch your back, cause I'll be stomping on it, BITCH!!

Whew... I feel good. Aaron, I might come by your house and play some DDR, alright? I need to get back into the mood of things with it. I'm rusty as hell... Mel, I'll probably be at Aarons, already so I'll meet you there? Anyway, I hope you all have a nice day.

Hey, bitches!!

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 15:46:37 GMT

Finally got home from camping... *shrugs*

I dislike camping in trailor parks... I felt like a hick a little, but not a full one. Man, I found that I am glad that I don't have a person like Sandy as a aunt. She was a real bitch to me. I couldn't do anything, pretty much, so I went to my corner of the park and inked away at a picture. Then she commented me on my art, and after that, thought I was some sort of vampire cause I was wearing all black.
Well, SANDY, the reason I was wearing black was the following
Pants: They were sweatpants. It was fucking cold up there.
Shirt: It was red, dumb bitch!
Jacket: It was my hoodie! Back off!
Socks: They were WHITE!! OH, NO!!!

Sorry. I just got extremely annoyed at Sandy all yesterday. Stupid bitch..... But, I"m home, so. Yay! Working more on the inking project, so talk to me sometime.

I got shitty sleep, too!

Late

Listen to the Piano...

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 17:07:51 GMT

I got nothing. Feelin' kinda low, and I don't know if it'll go away. Now I'm just sitting at home, listening to the piano play for me. Mel, I gotta go to the doctors, so when I get home, I'll let you know what's going on.

I gotta tell ya...

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 19:08:42 GMT

I'm still kinda nervous. I mean, I did the interview with flying colors and that, and I was so glad I didn't choke up on anything, but you know... I guess I have doubt in myself that I'll get the job. I'd only have the morning shift, which in itself isn't much at all... Like 15 - 20 hours a week. God damn, I hate my pessimistic attitude towards this. I want this. I wanna make sure I have enough money to help my poor ass out, and Melinda, too. I don't want us to end up poor and living off on the streets. I'd do anything to make sure we have something. Cause she should be in a nice house or a nice apartment. Yeah. That's the goal: make sure we get a good apartment to live in. So, I hope to Buddha that I get this...

Damn me and my self doubt.

Jones Bottle says: Your partner will be proud of you.
Is fate being funny on me, or is it telling me the future? We'll have to wait. I get a call within the weekend... I don't know what I'm gonna do this weekend.

I got an Interview!!!!

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 21:11:07 GMT

Holy Dog Shit! I got an Interview tomorrow! I went to Charlies yesterday and I got that application in there, and they called me like ten minutes ago! I celebrated my chance to get an interview by dancing naked and getting dressed to go outside and hit things! I'm happy! Yay! I'm gonna call Mel up and tell her! WHEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is going to be good, damnit!

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 19:50:57 GMT

This weekend will be some serious shit. I'm going to have a very good weekend for many reasons. Here's the list of what and why?

I get to be with Melinda for five days and nights!
- It's been a really long time since I spent a good night with her. Everytime we do, I sleep with happiness... And I snore, says her... -_-;. That's okay, though. I don't know about her, well, I probably do, but I am always happy to know that I wake up and see her face right by me. It's been a long time, and I think it's time I get a few more nights with her. Much love to you, Mel!

Dynasy Warriors 4: Empires...
- After playing the game and seeing it's functions for the Edit Character mode, I must say it was great looking at that point. But nothing prepared me for what was next. Our forces ripped through China and we were left with only one force to destroy. I didn't see if it was done, but it was intense! I so want to play that way again. Get us an army and CRUSH CHINA!!!!

Might get me a JOB-Y!!
- I need me a job, so I can get Chicken Burgers! No... I do need a job, though. I applied for fast food all day yesterday until it was 2:30. Then I went to Aaron's and I heard that Jacks Fruit Market might hire me. So if so, go me! It is good, too. So go me! I hope I get a job, soon. So I can role in the money and get Mel something purdy..... I shouldn't have said that. Oh, no! You heard nothing... Yes, nothing...!

That's all I got. See ya all later...

Damn you, rain!

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 18:39:12 GMT

I think I should not play in the rain without a shirt again. I kinda feel sick now.... Ugh! This pisses me off.... I don't like being sick! My stomach is making me feel like shit and I got things I gotta do today! I tried sleeping, but it didn't help much... I couldn't sleep cause of the stomach keeping me up.... I don't think I"m gonna go anywhere today.... Damnit! I wanted to go places, but it's hurting for me to walk around or ride my bike. This morning I felt a little pain from riding to Burger King, but it got worse... Man! This blows! THIS BLOWS!!!!! I'm gonna be online for a while, I guess... IM me and make me feel better, please...

More to do...

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 16:49:15 GMT

Unicorn (Duet Version)
- Apoptygma Berzerk

You hold the candle I once lit
You shine your light
When you forgive I cry
You run your fingers through my hair
And tell me it´s worthwhile, it´s all worthwhile

Even when I hate myself
Even when I feel your pain
when you cry
Even when my heart is cold
You assure me it´s worthwhile, it´s all worthwhile

You see, see what can´t be seen
You repair the damage done to me..

Went out to Burger King after I got the kids ready for school. Got my app done there and then I went to Michaels to get some more art stuff. After that I came home. I haven't slept yet, so I don't know what's gonna happen. I gotta clean the room again.... And I gotta go see Melinda to cheer her poor heart up. She's had a bad at school yesterday and I guess she needs some comfort. I will deliver, unless my body will not let me.

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 23:09:40 GMT

I'll be back ina while. I"m going to RIck's. Mel, I'm sorry for not responding. I really am....... I feel bad. Gonna go now. I love you, Mel. I'll be on later.

Yet another quiz...

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 04:42:36 GMT

Your full name: Nicholas John Roditcher
Age: 18. One more month til it's 19
Height: 5'9"
Natural hair color: Black
Eye color: Grey
Number of siblings: Jesus.... I got too many...
glasses/contacts?: Glasses. I be sexy with them
Piercing:: None... I"m more a tattoo person
born: In a cardboard box

FAVORITE

Color: Black, grey, blue
animal: *gets a cooking pan*
Band: Too many to list...
Song: Too many, again
Stuffed animal: Chauncey and Gizmo
Video game: Xenogears, Dynasty Warriors 4
TV show: Invader Zim, ATHF, Sealab 2021, Venture Bros., The Simpsons, Family Guy, King of the Hill
Movie: The Goonies
Book: The Complete Idiot's Guide to Creating a Graphic Novel
Food: Sushi, ice cream, cajun spices, hot wings, buffalo wings, seafood, any food!
Flower: A black rose. I don't really care, to tell ya
Scent: Mel smell
Comic book: Ready for this? Powers, Bite Club, Johnny the Homicidal Maniac, Squee, I Feel Sick, The Goon, Spiderman, Teen Titans, X-Men, The Josh Sullivan Adventures, The Chaotic Duo, Powerpuff Girls Doujinshi, Nowhere Girl, Experiment 48602
Chocolate bar: Chocolate is chocolate
Website: I don't know...
Cartoon: TV covers that
mythical animal: Fallen Angel
DO YOU

Play an instrument?: Guitar
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: I don't know, really...
Like to sing?: Umm... I can't sing
Have a job?: No.
Like to play sports?: It depends on the sport
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: The best one ever
Have a crush on someone?: I love my Mel!
Live somewhere NOT in Canada?: Wouldn't you like to know
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: Probably
Have any special talents/skills: I can draw pretty, pretty pandas!
Exercise daily?: I walk around... I gotta stop that
Like school?: I'm outta that shit! I'm a free man!

CAN YOU

Sing the alphabet backwards?: If not put under a time limit
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: Nope
Speak any other languages?: Gay?
Go a day without food?: If suicide was the option...
Stay up for more than 24 hours?: Actually, no
Roll your tongue?: Yes
Eat a whole pizza?: Sure can!

HAVE YOU EVER

Cried to get out of trouble?: Sure did. It's wonderful how emotions work with people
Seen a shooting star?: Lots of them
Been to any other countries?: Nope
Solved a rubiks cube?: I've seen a guy do it in a minute and a second. Got it on tape.
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: Yes, and even worse than that once, too
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: Nope.
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: Marriot Hotel all over again
Been in love?: I am in love
Been close to love?: Above, morons!
Been to a casino?: I wanted to start my own like Bart Simpson
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?: Nah. I choose life
Made homemade muffins?: Hells yeah!
Been to Disneyland/ DisneyWorld?: Twice
More than 5 times?: Two
Been to Niagara falls?: Nah
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU

Brushed your teeth: This morning...
Saw a movie in theaters: Umm.... Shit. I don't remember
Read a book: Today. I got some comics
Had a snow day: Fuck if I know
Had a party: Depends on what you mean by party
Had a slumber party: On Saturday. Though there was little slumber
Tripped in front of someone: When I was walking with Mel
Went to the grocery store: When I was hungry

PICK ONE

Fruit/vegetables: Fruit
Black/white: Black
Lights on/lights off: For what reason are we asking this question? Either or is good for me
TV/movie: TV or movie
Car/truck: Car
Body spray/lotion: I don't use either..... I'm a horrible person... ;_;
Cash/check: Cash
Pillows/blankets: Both are essential
Paint/charcoal: Micron Pens, bitch!
Chinese food/Mexican food: All foods, bitch!
Summer/winter: Summer. Winter is losing it's effect on me
Snow/rain: Rain
Fog/misty: Meh...
Rock/rap: Rock
Meat/vegetarian:: Meat. It's the thing that all vegetarians are missing
Sprinkles/icing:: Fuck that!
Cake/pie:: PIE!!! No pie can have my face on it...
French toast/French fries:: Fries, bitch!
Strawberries/grapes:: Strawberry
Ocean/swimming pool:: I don't like swimming
Cookies/muffins:: Both!
Wallet/pocket:: Pocket. It's a hell of a lot easier for me!
Window/door:: Whichever
Pink/purple:: Blue
Cat/dog:: Monkey!
Long sleeve/short sleeve:: Short sleeve, but I have been known to change
Pants/shorts:: Pants. Shorts look horrid on me
Winter break/spring break:: It's a break
Spring/autumn:: Autumn. It's so beautiful out
Clouds/clear sky:: Depends
Sun/moon:: The moon

I....

am: going insane slowly, without Melinda in my bed
want to find a boyfriend: I'm not gay.... I should have Melinda in my bed
need: Melinda in my bed
crave: Melinda in my bed
hate:: not having Melinda in my bed
did: think about what would happen if I had Melinda in my bed
feel: lonely without Melinda in my bed
miss: Melinda in my bed
am tired of: not having Melinda in my bed!!!!!

SILLY STUFF

What is your favorite genre of music?: I like all kinds
What time is it now?: 12:33
What day is it?: Tuesday
When’s the last time you called someone?:I don't know. I hate phones
Are you hungry?: Yep
Whatcha doin?: Typing at this thing and thinking of the very maws of hell itself!
Do you like parades?: Panda's on Parade!
Do you like the moon?: Sure do!
What are you going to do when youre done with this?: Sleep
If you could have any magical power what would it be?: Able to fly
Have you ever had a picnic?: Fuck that
Are you wearing any socks right now?: Yes
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE

funny?: I guess. Do YOU think so!?
Pretty?: Melinda thinks so
sarcastic?: Who, me!?
lazy?: 99.9% of the time
hyper?: More than lazy
friendly: Sure
smart?: Gay?
strong?: I can kill you five times before you hit the ground
talented?: I draw... That's not talented
dorky?: Yes.... I won't lie. You happy now!?

WOULD YOU EVER

Sky dive?: Maybe
Run away?: Did it already
Not take a shower for a week?: I'm sorry. No I would not
Ask someone out?: It just happens. But no more. I got what I want
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?: Maybe
Go scuba diving?: I hate that kinda water
Write a Book: My autobiography on how I took over the world and enslaved every human being and punished my enemies *cough*the bitch!*cough*
Become a Rockstar?: I ain't that good.

LAST QUESTIONS

What shampoo do you use?: Suave
What kind of computer do you have?: Compaq...
What grade are you in?: Hopefully a freshie in College
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: I eat that shit!
How many posters do you have in your room?: I got lots...
How many cds do you have?: My mp3 does that job for me.
What time is it now?: 12:41

If I'm not online today, I ain't home

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 16:09:04 GMT

Sorry, gang, but I got a lot of work to do today. So if I'm not online, I'm out of the house. I'm gonna get me some more comic art supplies, fill out some applications, possibly get me a new shirt, draw some people at the Food Court, get some comics to get inspired for color ideas, and..... well, I don't know. But if I come online again, I guess it means I'll be done with my work. So, wish me luck! Mel, I love you with all my heart! And have a good day, hun.

Late

Just an update on my life

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 22:58:14 GMT

I've been drawing a lot of things lately. I don't know what part of my brain sparked this jolt, but I think it is a good thing. I need to get a lot of things done. First off, I have the Rigid Pig Zine submission done. I need to get it inked and I'm done. That wouldn't take too long for me, though. I've just gotta figure out the time for it to happen. With all this artwork I've done, I'm surprised I didn't put it on deviantART yet. But then again, I have been busy with other fun projects, too.

The 21st is coming up, and that can only mean one thing: I get to spend the day with Melinda. It will be three months since we've went out(fifteen months mentally, though...). I don't know what I'm gonna do for her on that day. I'm making her gifts and that, but I wanna do something special... But what? Thinking on it. It will come to me when the time comes... But yay for the anniversary!

My comic, ExPERIMENT 48602 is coming along. I've got a few pages done for the first part. The storyline is now in a comic shop now. It stars myself, Melinda, Pat, Rick, and Nate. We are all working at a comic shop and some stuff is about to happen! Maybe guest appearances, UFO sightings, the government gets involved, or even.... EVIL DOOM BUNNIES!!! What will happen to this band of comic dorks(I can call them that. We are, after all.... Or maybe it's just me.) But yeah. I think I'm gonna try to get it done before Motor City Comic Con.

Speaking of which, I'm looking for anyone who wants to go with me to Motor City Comic Con. If you are up for it, let me know so I can figure out price needs, what to bring, and chauffeur needs. If you're into comics, monsters, anime, medieval/japanese weaponry or just a big geek for art, tell me about it, and lets try and get a party going. It'll be held on October 16-17 in Novi, Michigan. It'd be cool if I had a group of friends go with me. It'll be fun.

I'm trying to get Adobe Photoshop installed into my computer via SoulSeek. I'm in need of coloring my comics, so I figured this would be the best solution. Either that, or just for future fun, make colorful artwork that doesn't look like some kid colored inside the lines with crayons... Not that I don't like crayons.

Soon it will be Mel's birthday, and I will spend the day with her, too! I gotta make her something, too. So I think I'll go visit Mr. Kaelberer to see if I can make something in the new art room. Hopefully he's working so I can get some stuff done. Yeah. I need some supplies.... But I'm not gonna give her any hints on the birthday present... Hehehe! Sorry, Mel. I love you, but this has to be a secret.

So, yep. I'm also trying to get a job at Coy's Comics on Hamilton. The owner hasn't been there for a while, and won't be there til next Thursday, so I gotta wait it out. Also, I haven't gotten a call from 7-11, either... I think those guys will not call me. It doesn't phase me if so. No one I've went to called me. Not one out of seventy two applications have called me. I've even bugged people and they still haven't called me. I tell ya, the economy here sucks ass... Either I get a job soon, or I start working in Canada. Yep.

That's my life in a nut shell, kids... Hope you enjoy reading this crap...

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Do I do enough?

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 22:34:17 GMT

I'm feelin' a bit like I've neglected her a bit... I don't know why, but something feels like I missed something and I didn't pick it up yet. Or maybe I'm not spending enough time with her. I do want to spend time with her. More than with anyone else. But I feel like I haven't been doing that. Am I going nuts or something? Am I just being silly, or is it true? Am I not giving you enough? Do you want more? I don't know.... I feel a bit... blue.

Gotta get me a part job for the Comic supplies!!!

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 14:48:31 GMT

Well, it's been a while, so here we go!

Yesterday I spent most of the day with Melinda, which I enjoyed greatly. Haven't seen her for a week on account of her being grounded and such, so I wanted to make up for the lost time and spend all the time I could with her. We went over to her crazy grandma's house to see her aunt for a while. She was on vacation, and was leaving soon, so we went and spent some time with her. It was fun to see her. She seemed pretty cool. Had a decent sense of humor and that. For the first part of the discussion, I kinda stood quiet, cause I knew nothing of what they were talking about. So I tried to soak up some info so I could eventually look like a fool and go, "Oh yeah! I remember that...."

Well, they went out to eat some wings from Hooters, Mel's aunt and company, mind you. That reminds me: go to Ruby Tuesdays and get some buffalo wings AFTER I go to see about an interview meeting, meaning I don't have one, but I would like one. Yes! I need money! MUUUUUNNNNEEEEEYY!!!(spelt wrong for your viewing pleasure.) So yeah. Afer they left, we spent some time with her grandma and Kim. We ate some good spaghetti and we both enjoyed a nice game of cards. Mel will beat me soon, I think. And I mean that, too. She's getting tired of me winning, I think. So she's gonna start pulling out a knife and stab my hand when I slap the cards.... Yipes!

Then her grandma had to go to work, and we were talking to Kim. Kim isn't so bad. She's a little crazy, but hey. We all are, really. She gave me some good comments about me. She gave some secret comments to Mel about me(which I need to find out one of these days, cause curiousity is ensuing). Kim said I should pursue my dream and be a comic artist. Even though I have been, but I need to work a lot harder than before. Speaking of that, Josh Sullivan might be coming to visit. Not saying it's a definate, but if so, I'll try and hang out for a bit. So, if so, welcome back to Suckinaw, Josh!

We watched a movie called Escape from Hell. It was a christian movie, which I didn't find it convincing to me. But I wasn't going to try and start a religious debate on it. That would be bad, so I agreed it was an 'alright' movie. Then we went back to the rest of the gang and we hung out til Melinda's grandma stopped home. Then we got rides home. Oh, shit... That reminds me... I gotta get my bike! Mel, if you see my bike gone, it's cause I came to get it. When I got home, I went straight to bed. I was tired from waking up so early. But all in all, it was a good time. Now if Eric calls Mel, he's gonna get chewed out again. Yep. So, I'm gonna get ready to get that job interview scheduled. Okay? Okay!

Late

..........

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 19:21:37 GMT

I'm so..... bored. I want to see Melinda, right now! But there is a barrier in my way... Her mom. Good lord, why does her family have to be stupid? For Christ sake, they think I am a bad influence on her. What the hell is that suppose to mean? I've met some shit parents in my day, and they were shit parents, too. But these have to be the worst... They're judging me without any knowledge of who I am. Do any of you honest and I mean honestly, without using any joking method at all, think I'm some sort of bad influence? Not just on Melinda, but on anyone else!? I'm a decent human being with a mellow mind and a kind heart. I don't make anyone do anything they don't want to do. I don't force anything to anyone. I am a nice fucking person! So why are they being bitches!?

Her dad needs to be eradicated from the face of the earth! He turned on us. If he didn't think I was a nice guy, then he should have talked to me about it first! He probably thought I was on drugs that one day when I was burning up and coughing up bloody flem. Yeah, I'm really on drugs. I haven't been on drugs in a long ass time now. So please, spare me the lecture of how drugs are bad, because I have passed that stage in life. Maybe I should show them how clean I am with a written document of clean health.... No. Melinda's mom will just ignore it or say it's a fake. Then she'll call the cops on me again.... Bitch!

Judge me when you know me, not from what some person tells you. Buddha, please tell these two idiots how nice of a person I am. Get Mel out of the house and into my arms, please. I'm not in the mood for melancholy moods, but it's becoming more like this. I miss her. I miss her more than anything. So make her free. I need her now. I need her to make me smile again....

Thought I'd try this out

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 00:38:45 GMT

A feel good quiz by cerulean_dreams
your name is...
your eyes	make men shiver
your hair	is your pride and glory
your smile	lights up the day
your body	gets a lot of attention
your hugs	are warm and fuzzy
your kiss	is given only to those who deserve it
your love	is not given likely

Quiz created with MemeGen!

You know what?

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 17:53:10 GMT

I'm going to lay out some bit of hatred towards a few certain people... Yes, I am. Why? Cause I find them to be a thorn in my side of life and I want them to listen very carefully. Now, begins my rampage of words.

I don't care who you are, what you are, what position in life you are in, how down your life is, or any of that bull shit! I'm going to tell you right now. "Burn in Hell!" I told you to stay out of my life, I told you I don't wanna see you anymore, and I've told you that I don't plan to have anything to do with you. But there seems to be something wrong with this picture. You won't GO AWAY!!! I am sick and tired of hearing your voice, the polution that seeps from your lips and enters the ears of mine. Your voice sickens me, and I want you to realize that. Little girl, no one likes you and the reason is simply put, "You're a BITCH!!!" Take heed to this, now. Your mouth, actions, and friends will get you into some serious trouble. Continue on this road, and your world will be far more worse than you think it is! I want you out of my life! I don't want to ever hear of your name from anyone else's mouth again! And if you even think of starting anything with the one I love, I will personally whip your sorry whored ass back to last year! I've had it, and I want you gone!!! So leave!!! LEAVE!!!!!!!!

I heard you once say that you wanted to be my friend again, you were not mad at us or anything else. Well, I guess words are more tainted than I thought. You disgust me, you trash. To think that I honestly wanted to be around you. I used to think you were something, you could have been something, but now I see the truth. You're a spineless punk who thinks he can get away with anything and act like a bad ass. Egotistical little bastard! I got your ego right here under my boot. Here, let me help you with that, while I stomp it back into your mouth! Rage and anger is filled with me. You're two faced! I hope you are happy now, because you will not be bringing my life down. A worm like you needs to sit outside in the sun and dry up, dying a slow and painful death! Who you are is who you are, and I can not change that, but I can tell you this. "If you say something to me and show me you don't mean it, you will quickly find me to be a mean son of a bitch!" So what do you have to say to me now!? Still wanna be my friend? Oh, I will be gone soon, but you will not get another chance, you hear me!? I am the winner in this and I won the best prize a guy like me can win! So back the fuck off!!!

And you! Who the hell do you think you are!? You are of no part of this what so ever, and you think you can just barge in on it like you have a say in this!? Bull shit! I just want you to know that I think your actions towards the whole thing were all a waste! I'm not in the mood to think about the idiotic ideas you had in your head. And you thought I was going to steal her from you!? Don't make me laugh. I don't want to steal anyone from you, but you have this stupid idea that I want to! Jesus H. Christ! Why the fuck would I want to? She wanted you, and you still don't believe it! You are indeed a blind soul if you can't see that! You're pathetic!!! I hope your eyes open before it all passes you by!

Why are you not talking to me? Are you afraid of me? Are you being told not to talk to a guy like me? Does HE fear that I'll take you away!? Why the fuck are you standing for that load of shit!?! I met you first, remember!? Who made you think of good times when you were sad? Who told you of the stars? Who taught you how to be free!? Does that shit mean nothing to you? Well, I guess I see who your side is... I'm disappointed in you, you know that!? You take a guy who holds you down and not listen to a friend who's taught you to take life in your own hands. I guess I see how much I effected your life. It was simple, take me for a while and then move on. Congradulations! You joined the list of women who've been in my life, minus one! But it's okay, now, cause I'm the one who's free now! I have what I wanted, and I'm not letting go! I hope you find your way to the stars, cause you're going alone now! Find your own path and take it, cause I'm on my own path with one other person only! So enjoy your life.... Jesus Christ. I lost a friend now.

I want all of you to realize something. I love this girl! She's the one I wanted from the day I met her. I waited my time and I now have her, and I want you to know she will be mine when I'm gone. She's not open for grabs anymore, cause she's chosen who she wants to be with! I am honored to be with her, too, so all of you stay the fuck away from her, cause I'll be hearing about all of the people who try and take her. If I find you if you try to take her, I will show you no mercy and drag you into a dark alley and whip the idea out of your head. My heart is hers to do with. I've given her something that she can easily rip in half, but she won't! I know she won't. And you will not ruin this for us! My life is finally complete again! It's something I've waited for, and now that I have it, I'll keep it forever. So back off! BACK THE FUCK OFF!!!!

This has all been built up inside me for a long time. If I forgot anyone in this, then I will be sure to post it. But heed my words when I say, "Don't fuck this up for me, or so help me you'll answer to me!"

*sigh...*

Late